31st
Grey-out.
I just greyed out. It’s been a long time since I’ve had it happen. You know the feeling where all of a sudden u feel really light headed and then it all starts to fade in black as though your about to faint, but the black never quite reaches the centre…. I crouched on the floor and it went off. Now drinking a sugar free red bull to perk myself up. 12 cal, but that’s ok because I burnt 350 @ the gym this morning so my intake is still negative.
The gym was good for me this morning, I just pushed myself until I forgot about everything, including R. I came home and cried in the shower, but it has perked me up a bit - endorphins are so important.
One of the fb girls mentioned to mwe this morning that she does the same thing as me, when something goes wrong the instinct is to stop eating. I hadn’t really thought about it until she said it, but that is exactly what I do. As though not eating will help to fix the situation, it certainly makes me feel better. My hunger pains have been a source of comfort the past few days, that’s probably not a good association. :(
