7th
Ok. So my fast broke at 5 days after R noticed that and hadn’t eaten anything and cooked me some soup for dinner. Since then I’ve been very good about eating only when people are watching, but I’m still not eating a lot.
I’m currently in aspen with the family which is nice, I know a lot of people have issues with their families or whatever, but I don’t. I love spending time with them and I always enjoy our family ski holidays. The downside is we’re all together in our apartment so we’ll be eating together for almost every meal & going out most nights for dinner, that should make things challenging. I’m going to focus on keeping portion sizes really tiny.
I arrived here last night, everytime I come I am amazed at how beatuiful this place is. It’s stunning & currently magical because it’s snowing! Being here is helping me forget about R for a bit which is a good thing. We had a chat before I left and I feel a bit better about everything, he seems very confused and upset about what he wants. He found out a few weeks ago that his parents are deciding to separate so he’s just a bit lost at the moment. I want to be there for his as a friend at the very least.
I hope you’re all wonderful and feeling a bit happier about life than I am at the moment. Remember, it always works out and there’s always another love around the corner even when your absolutely certain of the opposite, it just wasn’t meant to be. xxxxxx
